Title: Never You
Author: kira-nerys
Pairing: K/S
Coding: R to be on the safe side.
Summary: Kirk's got a tough time committing to anyone.
Disclaimer: Star Trek belongs to Paramount. No infringement intended. No
money being made from this.
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Notes: Part of the Spock fuh-q Fest. I didn't draw this as a pairing, but
I need short stuff to fill up the zine <G> and this is something that'll helpme do
that.
Never You
(c) 2000 by kira-nerys
So painful
So real
Others never touched me this way.
Their faces parade before my inner eye.
Nameless, heartless flesh,
Where I have sought release.
Always the flesh was involved
But never my cowardly heart
I kept my feelings hidden carefully
Even better than you ever could, my Vulcan friend.
Walls risen around it, to protect me always
The truth of my heart always hiding
Behind false bravery and open eyes
- glimmering smiles.
Always hiding my truest self and all my fears.
From you most of all
Always enjoying moments of pleasure
Never pain
Always with others
Never with you
Always seeking safety of a stranger's lust
Never you, never your touch
Never allowing you close enough to hurt me
Yet now, as I lie here beneath you
Finally admitting the truth
You were always there, inside my heart
I already hurt
It wasn't you, it was me...
By keeping distance I hurt myself.
It was never you.
The pain stabs at me relentlessly
Your dark eyes penetrate my very soul
As your cock penetrates my flesh
Love and lust mingle in one glorious being.
In you.
Averting my eyes from the intensity
From the closeness of your touch
Your gaze frightens me
You take my chin in those long-fingered hands
And beg me with need and want in your eyes
Look at me, you say
With that deep, demanding voice
See me.
See my love for you.
See who I am.
Know that I am yours.
Know that I belong
We belong
I watch you and I see it all.
I see the love in your eyes
I see the lust
It brings me such pain.
It is too much.
You give too much of yourself to me.
I cry out as I open to you.
As your mind penetrates my very soul
I cry from the pain released.
Finally, the agony blossoms into pleasure.
It is no longer just sex.
It is love.
I love
You
Loneliness and fears become unity
I am complete
As you move within me
Touching me deeper than any other
We are one
T'hy'la. |
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