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Title: Bashert
Author: Mycroft Holmes
Characters: K/S
Rating: G, drabble-and-a-half
Disclaimer: Paraborg/Viagracom owns Star Trek, etc. Dale Kushner owns her poem. No infringement intended, no money being made.
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Summary: Simple, very, Spock POV piece.
Note: for LND, who changes the world every day. His, mine, and ours.

One's destiny

Light rains down through the pine in muzzy patches.
Unripened blueberries. Strawberries
among the timothy.

On the lake, whitecaps
scored by wind into splendid music.
Sunlight teasing the newest white in your beard.

Our bodies
stretch side by side on the granite outcrop.

Above your head a leaf
tossed from a dying birch
prematurely,

a small gold rag
embroidered with a leaf-miner's destiny.
The boyish scaffold of your smile in shadow.

That we have come this far together
is miraculous.

Because once,
truth was my enemy I didn't call it lying then.
In my mind I said, I'm-Saving-Him-From-The-Pain.

Death threw bravos at me,
hummed at my heels.
The lying
was a trick I played on myself, ignorantly,
the way children do
when they hold their breath.

But I was too old to taunt angels.
Years ago we came here
in winter, season of blankness,
the dark happening larger and larger each day.

That's how I remember it.
We had stopped shining.

July now, and in a few hours
the shore-hugging pines
will begin their double lives

under the water's onyx surface
where the stars
settle into their signature designs.

Then the loons will come on
song passing through their prehistoric bones,
emptying the air of all other sound.

Mate. Mated. Such simple words.
Bashert. ~Dale M. Kushner (2000)

The world is a different place, today. It is and it is not.

It is the same world as it has always been, and yet it is, at the same time, entirely different.

It is not logical. But it is true.

And I think...I cannot help but think...that it is because of yesterday.

What happened yesterday has changed today. Has changed the world.

Yesterday.

Yesterday, I met James T. Kirk. Captain Kirk, I should say, of the starship Enterprise. James Kirk, I want to say, of...what?

What.

Mine? Of mine?

Dare I think it? Dare I say it?

I want him to be mine. I want him. I want.

And because of this...the world has changed. Is changing. Will change. The world, this ship, and perhaps the entire Universe.

And I cannot stop it. I cannot even try.

And for the first time, in my life...I do not want to.

Mycroft Holmes
7 April 2006 / 9 Nisan 5766
North End, Boston

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