Title: Make ´me, break me
Author: phoenix9873
Rating: PG
Pairing: Clark/Lex
Feedback: phoenix9873@hotmail.com Any feedback is appreciated.
Summary: That first kiss.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything or anyone. I make no money, no infringement
intended blah blah.
Betas: Jezebel & AnaRae
Challenge: Clark and Lex' first kiss - and only a kiss (Jezebel).
This is in response to the ClexFest challenge. Hope you like it. It is my first attempt at writing in about 15yrs but who can turn away from Clex. lol
http://www.kardasi.com/Lexclusive/ClexFest 

Make Me, Break Me
Phoenix9873

As he stood looking out the window at the castle grounds, Lex sighed, at that moment he truly hated his father with all his being. He hated his father for destroying him, and his father didn't even have a clue that he had succeeded. Lionel had won and he hadn't even had to lift a finger. He had won just by being the devil incarnate that he was. When this was over and the new Lex Luthor was born his father would rue the day he decided to make Lex into his perfect heir. This old Lex had to do one more thing before being reborn though. He had to save his best friend and the love of his life, Clark Kent.

As if thinking his name made him appear, there in the doorway stood Clark.

"Hey Lex, mom told me you called and ask me to come over?"

"Yes Clark, please have a seat. I have something I need to talk to you about."

"I know Clark." Lex said after a minute of studying the boy.
Clark looked at Lex and said, "you know what Lex?"

"I know it all, I know that you are an alien, I know you can run really fast, I know that I hit you with my car, I know Clark."

"Lex please I, I, I don't know what you are talking about," Clark stuttered.

"I have it on video tape, if you would like a home movie Clark. I can show you it all. The video, the simulation from the computer, but you don't need me to show you, do you Clark, because you already know it. Clark, I am not telling you this to hurt you, I telling you so you will understand what I am about to say and do. I am leaving Smallville tonight and I will not be coming back. I am going to help my father with Luthorcorp in Metropolis."

Clark looked near tears, "Why Lex? I thought you were staying here to get away from your father's influence."

"Clark, you are my best friend. I have never had a friend before, certainly not a best friend. You saved me that day at the bridge. Then you taught me something my father never did. You taught me to love and its because of that love that I am leaving." Lex was as pale as a ghost as he uttered these words. He didn't know what Clark's reaction would be but he had to tell him everything. He had to make Clark understand. If Clark didn't understand fully then all of the pain and suffering to come will have been for nothing.

Clark looked at Lex and said, "I love you too Lex."

"No Clark, not only do I love you like a best friend, but I love you like a lover." Lex held his breath as he watched the words sink in.

Clark turned a very nice shade of red and looked at the floor as he said, "I know Lex and I love you like that too. I love you like a lover."

Lex sat down hard in his chair as Clark told him this. He knew he loved Clark but he never dreamed that Clark loved him back. It made this so much more important to pull off. That Clark loved him would make it a little easier to bear but it still had to be done.

"I still have to leave Clark. I still have to go to my father's side.

"Why Lex, if I love you and you love me, then why are you leaving me?" Now there were tears streaming down Clark's face.

Lex had to turn away, "because Clark, like I said, I know everything."

Clark interrupted saying, "If you know everything then why do you have to leave. Does it make you hate me, do I disgust you now? Please Lex tell me what I can do to make you stay? I need you. I love you." Clark was sobbing now.

Lex had to forcibly restrain himself from going to Clark. He had to finish this or he never would. "Clark listen to me, I know every strength you have," Lex paused, "I also know your weakness. The meterorites." Clark flinched. Clark started to interrupt again and Lex held up his hand, "no Clark, listen to me please. I am not doing this because I hate you, I am doing this because I love you. I am trying to keep you and your family safe. Safe from my father and men like him."

"Aren't you being a little over dramatic Lex," Clark said hotly.

"No Clark, if anything I am understating the problem. My father will stop at nothing for absolute power and if he had you nothing could stop him. He would use your family and friends to control you. Then he would have the perfect weapon, lab rat and sex toy all rolled into one and nothing I could do would stop him. I love you too much for that." Lex looked away as he said, "I have thought of just killing him myself but he is not the only evil out there. I have more of a chance protecting you if I am in a position of power and as much as I want it right now, I know I am not ready to take over Luthorcorp right now. I have to wait and learn."

Clark looked at Lex pleadingly, "but you can learn all that right here Lex. You don't have to leave."
"Yes Clark, I do. If I stay my father will want to know why. He will have me watched and in watching me he will see you. That is a risk I am not willing to take. So I am leaving tonight. I need to do this Clark, you have shown me how to love. Let me do it the only way I can, by leaving you and becoming strong enough to protect the one I love the only way I know how." Now Lex was pleading, he had tears in his eyes. Lex got up and made his way over to stand in front of Clark. "Please Clark tell me you understand?"

Clark stood up and took Lex in his arms as he said, "I understand Lex, I do. I hate it but I do understand."
They both held on to each for dear life, trembling and crying, knowing that this would be the last time they would see each other again for a long time, if ever again. As they separated Clark leaned in to kiss Lex. It was sloppy, wet and so hot. All Clark could do was try to get closer, he ran his tongue over Lex's bottom lip. As Lex opened his mouth Clark put his tongue to good use by tasting all of Lex's mouth. Lex groaned and held Clark closer by the grabbing his hair. He wanted so much to pull the boy down to the couch and have him right there, but Clark deserved better. Lex reluctantly let go of Clark and moved to sit on the couch. Clark reached out to Lex again but Lex took his hands in his and had him sit down with him.

"Clark we have to stop."

"Please Lex , just this once."

"No Clark, I can't, if we do make love I won't be able to leave and I need to leave. I am going to miss you so much Clark but we have to make this a clean and final break. No phone calls, no e-mail, no contact at all." In the distance Lex could here the helicopter coming to get him."I hope you will remember me fondly and not judge me too harshly in the coming years. Please remember that I love you and will always love you, you are it for me Clark. My one and everything," he said as the helicopter landed.

"Lex," Clark said, "Thank you for this. I will always love you too and Lex I will be waiting for a time when we can be together again. I will be waiting for your call. I love you Lex."

Lex took Clark in his arms one last time and kissed him softly on the lips. "I have to go Clark. I love you. Forever." He let Clark go and walked out into the courtyard to the waiting helicopter.

Clark watched as his love left him. He put his hand to the stained glass window and said to himself, "I will be waiting for you my love."

As the helicopter left the ground Lex looked down at the window to see Clark standing there and knew as he felt his heart harden that his father would learn, too late, the error of his ways.

The End