Author: Kerri
Title: Look What I Found
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: CLex
Warnings (if there are any): all 1st season episodes are fair game
Summary: Clark has some explaining to do
Disclaimer: I admit now that I do not own the characters within.
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Challenge: Lex finds Clark's diary at the loft (kira-nerys)
Author's notes: << denotes passages from the diary/journal >>
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Look What I Found
by Kerri

Lex sat in the loft waiting for Clark to get back with their refreshments. It was taking Clark a long time to talk to his mom, and Lex decided to gather the materials for their study session. Clark had his Physics midterm the following Monday and had asked for Lex's help. When Lex looked in Clark's backpack for his notebook and text, he found two nearly identical notebooks: one red and one blue. He flipped through the blue one first, since neither was labeled for any specific class. What he read made his shoulders stiffen and grabbed all his attention. Lex sat down on the couch and decided to keep reading what appeared to be Clark's diary. To an outsider Lex gave this notebook as much attention as he gave to corn recipes, but they would have missed the beads of sweat forming on his brow and the way his eyes never strayed from the pages. He continued to flip through the entries until a loud crash brought his attention back to the present.

He looked up to find Clark, pale as a ghost, standing at the top of the steps with, by the looks of it, their drink tray dropped at his feet.

"Hello, Clark." Lex just smirked.

"Um, L-Lex what are you doing?" Clark managed to look horrified, embarrassed, relieved and pissed all at once. He was able to clean up the mess, but never took his eyes off the blue notebook on Lex's lap.

"I thought I'd catch up on some light reading while I waited for you. Why, is something the matter?"

"Well, for starters you are reading my private and very personal journal. And to top it all off, you don't even look sorry." At that, Lex flipped to a page he had marked earlier and read aloud:

<< I woke up again this morning and realized I had that dream again. If wet dreams aren't bad enough, I have to have them about my best friend. I've never even gotten a blowjob, let alone given one. So why am I fantasizing about giving Lex one? Do I need to be more of a freak? Anyway, it’s the one where I walk into Lex's office as he is on the phone with his father. I can see how tense he is, so I walk over to him and start massaging his shoulders. Since he can't get away from me, I am able to see his growing erection. So I spin his chair around and kneel between his knees. He's still holding his end of the conversation with Lionel as I ease down the zipper and slowly pull down his slacks and boxers. In my imagination he is completely bare and utterly beautiful, it’s all I can do not to swallow him whole. But I do a fairly good job trying for my first blowjob. I'm trying out moves I've never even seen on basic cable when Lex ends the phone call. As soon as the phone hits the cradle, he shouts "Clark! Oh, God!" and shoots down my throat. I barely have time to swallow it all as he pulls me up for a kiss and proceeds to lick away the mess. He is the most amazing kisser and I think I could just kiss him forever. But I always wake up right then, just to come in my boxers. It's dreams like this that make me late for school. >>

"Oh wait, there's more. And this one is even juicier.” Lex flipped a couple of pages to his next dog-eared page.

<< I zoned out in Physics today and completely missed the lecture as well as how to do any of the problems assigned. At first I thought it would be another scarecrow nightmare, but it soon got hotter. "Help me, somebody help me!" I could barely yell, but some how Lex heard me. He came through the corn and saw me tied up on the make shift cross. But he didn't cut me loose; he just stared at my almost naked body. "Clark, I still owe you for saving my life, why don't you let me help you?" I answered, "Yes, please just get me down." "Not that kind of help,” Lex said, just as he ran his hand up my thigh. When he reached my boxers, he quickly pulled them down. I stared dumfounded as he licked my newly awakening cock. He proceeded to deep throat me and pinch my nipple with the hand not already at the base of my shaft. I whimpered as he pulled of me just to suck on his own fingers. In no time his luscious mouth was back on my cock and his saliva wet finger was circling my asshole. Right when he took me to the root, he slipped his middle finger in my hole. I screamed and shot down his throat after he crooked his finger and hit my prostate. Lex soothed me while I came down from the orgasm and cut me down once he was sure I wouldn’t fall off the cross. I yanked at the necklace and managed to throw it far enough away from us. “Lex that was amazing.” “Don’t worry Clark, there’s more I can show you.” Just then the bell rang at school and I was ripped out of that fantasy. I had to walk around with my books in front of my pants for an hour because of my hard on. >>

“Lex, please stop, what the hell is wrong with you? Are you proud of yourself for humiliating me? Jesus, Lex, this is why I didn’t think I could tell you how I felt. I figured you wouldn’t want to be my friend again, but I didn’t think you’d be so cruel.” At that, Clark sank into the couch and cradled his head in his hands.

“Clark, while I am most definitely shocked, I don’t want our friendship to end. I am simply captivated by your diary-

“Journal, it’s a journal, ok?” Clark interrupted.

“Fine, journal. My point is that I didn’t set out to betray your trust by reading your personal thoughts; I simply grabbed the wrong notebook. I was looking for the one for physics when I opened it up and saw my name. I was curious and after the first entry I just kept reading. Those two were the only ones I had read so far. I really am sorry.” Lex laid his hand on Clark’s shoulder for support and Clark sat up to look him in his eyes.

“That doesn’t explain why you read them aloud to me.”

“That was a bit of a mistake on my part, I just wanted you to know what I read. I didn’t count on you getting to upset. I am sorry, Clark. And I think you’ve vastly misjudged my reaction to your journal. I’m not disgusted, in fact I am flattered. “

“Huh? What are you saying, Lex?” Clark now looked slightly more relaxed than he had when he first walked in the loft.

“To be perfectly honest with you, I think about you, too. And I wouldn’t mind reenacting some of your fantasies with you.” Lex leaned over to give Clark a deep kiss meant to erase any lingering doubts.

The pair continued kissing and soon clothes were removed. Clark decided to suck Lex’s dick for real, but Lex had other ideas. He rolled them on their sides and then switched positions so he and Clark could suck each other off at the same time. Clark gave as good as he got until Lex reaching behind his balls proved to be too much sensation. Lex came moments after Clark, since even he couldn’t believe this was really happening.

With Clark in a lazy sprawl, Lex climbed back over the couch and laid on top of his new lover. Clark stroked Lex’s head and back while the two shared passionate kisses.

“Um, Lex? Were those really the only two entries you had a chance to read?” Clark was suddenly concerned that Lex had found out his secret.

“Yes, why?”

“Well there are more juicy pages than those, but will you let me explain them to you in my own time? And I can assure you, I will answer those questions you’ve been asking ever since the accident.”

“Sure, Clark. I think we can count this as a new beginning. And since I’m secure in our destiny, I will certainly allow you some time before trusting me with your secret. “ Lex continued to run his fingers through Clark’s hair as he spoke.

“I promise not to shut you out as long as you’ll do the same for me. Deal? Oh, and Lex? We’ll definitely need time to explore my more recent entries about fucking and bondage.” Lex wiped the smirk off Clark’s face with a deep kiss and some much appreciated grinding.

The boys didn’t separate until Martha called up to them offering a break in studying and some pie. Luckily for Clark, his test wasn’t for another day, so they would still have some time to actually study the next night.

<< Well I got an A on that physics midterm, thanks to Lex. And I think that I will tell him the whole truth tonight. Mom is letting me go over after dinner so that I can thank him for the help…I just got back from the castle. Lex was very understanding and didn’t freak about the alien thing. I’m so glad I told him. >>

THE END